The day of my 75th birthday, November 9, 2016 we elected a new president. To be honest, I must say this was the most depressing birthday of my life. I stayed up, the night before, until there could be no doubt. There would be no last-minute comeback, no saving grace. I spent the night bathed in fear, not sleeping, as all the “worst case scenarios” played their way out in my mind. We know what those scenarios are, no need to go into frightening detail. Most of my birthday was spent in a feeling of disbelief and shock. The intense grief would come later. I tried to practice what I preach, “Just be with it”, “it is what it is”, “don’t argue with reality”. I tried to be the witness, “fear is present, but I am more than my fear.” I really tried to hold all of my despair and fear and sadness in the cauldron of my loving heart , but on this birthday day…..it was way too soon. I just needed to feel everything. Just that, nothing more. After a few weeks, after much meditating and supportive conversations with my tribe I was able to see more clearly. The emotional impact leveled out. I had let my feelings have their way with me. I had tried to honor them as best I could. I knew then that I was at a moment of conscious choice. Did I want to be seduced back into the dark swamp of emotional turmoil or did I want to choose peace? Not passivity…..but active peace. I chose peace. Something had been awakened in me, some strong sense of standing up, standing firm, speaking my truth and embodying my truth. I made the choice to be strength, to be power, to be truth, in my own life and then I put on my safety pin and headed out for Greenlake to stand in peaceful unity with 3,000+ of my fellow humans.
I made some conscious decisions.
I would not follow all the news.
I would not get entangled in facebook posts.
I would not read anything that might shake loose my fragile equilibrium. Part of me did want to stick my head in the sand and pretend that nothing would change, or that even if it did it wouldn’t impact me, but reality was hard to avoid so that really wasn’t a choice.
What could I focus on that would be balanced, reasonable, and helpful?
I decided to deepen my meditation practice to include a powerful prayer for the Soul of our country. (for a recording and a written copy that I made of this meditation click on this link,)
I made a commitment to myself to be as proactive as I could about political issues. I’m not an activist, by nature, so this was a stretch for me, but I found ways that I could contribute that didn’t include knocking on doors or proselytizing.
I decided to:
Read only that which……
Listen to only that which….
Be with only that which….
Uplifted, encouraged, inspired, and held me in loving support and understanding.
I made a habit of reminding myself, daily, sometimes hourly, of the fact that most of humanity longs for peace, for justice, for harmony. This helped keep me in a state of hope and optimism, rather than dejection and despair.
I reminded myself of what I believe is true:
We are at the end of an age, astrologically and rayologically. Any time new energy comes in and meets old energy there will be disruption.
The old, entrenched mind sets are never going to give way without a struggle, but evolution always moves forward so I’m trusting in that. We may be in a dip that feels like regression but from the largest perspective we continue to evolve and expand.
To heal anything, it must be brought to the light of day. We are seeing the manifestation of the shadow of our collective psyche. Now that it is seen, there can be no denying that this darkness resides in each one of us and we are being shown where our own healing needs to take place. Hasn’t this example of blatant sexism, racism, and misogyny forced you to examine your own attitudes or deeply hidden tendencies?
There is a new age coming and it will embody all the qualities of cooperation, collaboration, equality and a right distribution of resources. The timing of this age of Aquarius depends on the choices we make, as a species. So part of my “political activism” includes a commitment to embody these qualities in my everyday life. Every step we take individually has an impact. I deepen my faith that I can make a difference in my own small way.
I rest on the fact that I know I am not alone in this endeavor. There are unseen helpers that are always available to help me stay strong, to impress upon me what right action needs to be taken next, and to uplift and raise me up when I am discouraged and doubtful. I know these same Beings of Light are doing what they can to assist us in transforming our planet to its rightful destiny as a beacon of Light in the Cosmos. They hear our appeals and they respond, pouring more light into our sacred earth.
May we all be blessed with strength, courage and clarity as we face these uncertain times. May we strengthen our alignment, hold fast to our balance and remain calm and centered in the midst of the storm.
What Is It That You Were Given, by Em Claire.
What is it that you were given?
I mean from the loss.
After, what was taken.
That very thing, you could never live without.
The person or place; the secret, or circumstance — now that it is gone, or has been found out, and you can no longer call it foundation what is it that you were given?
You know, and I know, this:
there is a hollowing out.
Something comes and opens you up right down the middle and from that moment on you are no longer immune to this world.
You wake, you wander, every familiar, now a foreign.
You walk as through water until you make it back to your bed and finally, even there— your sheets; your own pillow’s scent different,
as if daily someone repaints your room, displaces something, disturbs a cherished memento.
You see, sometimes we are emptied.
We are emptied because
Life wants us to know
so much more Light.